Day 1??

Will today be the day that I care more about me than the food that comforts my insides? The food that betrays me and fills me all in one bite. Why does food have such a hold on me? Why have I gained over 20 pounds since Thomas was born... less than 3 months ago? I would like to say that I am being punished... that it is out of my control... I would have no responsibility then. I have to accept maybe for the first time in my entire life that life is really not fair and that I am different than those friends that do not have to worry as much about what they put in their mouths. I have to think about it... worry about it and be more aware. I need to learn that the good for me foods actually make me feel better... and when I feed my body what it needs... it gives me what I need. I need to learn to love me. I have to realize that I am more than worth it. So will today be the first day that I choose me??